Well, first off, much congrats to getting varsity, that's awesome. I hear how hard you've worked, and thats really cool.

Heh heh, i'm sorry for taking so much of nash's time, i didnt realise it was getting so bad over there....and i dont think he does either. I think you may want to talk to him and hear what he has to say about this, cuz i dont think he hates your dad at all for insurence, he just seemed to be really stressed about how everyone seems to be on his back about school and money. It's all very confusing, so i wont say more, i just think he needs to get a word in is all, but i'm his girlfriend, so of corse i'd say that. Just try it out at least, haha

peace homie

Thanks about the varsity thing. And its not that you take up all Nash's time, I dont see it like that, I have a hard time believing he makes time for us anymore, and I cant really blame him. Every time he comes around all anyone ever does is give him shit, but he's not completely undeserving. I do want to talk to him, because so far all I hear is the stuff from my dad and step mom...and its really not good. I dont care about him and his insurance thing...that has nothing to do with me, and I refuse to be upset at him about that, but that aside, I dont think he knows this, but he's about to lose his car if he doesn't get with it. What upsets me the most about the whole thing is he seriously acts like he just doesn't care about anyone anymore, thats the way he acts around us anyway. He's never done that before is all, it sucks.

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ok, well this is how I'M seeing all this (not my view way be a bit incorrect, but considering how much time i'm around the boy, i THINK this is what he knows...basically,i could be wrong, so dont hold be liable, heh) I do agree that he needs to spend more time with his family. I've talked to him about it before. I dont think he is purposly trying to avoid you all, i just think he doesnt think about it(you have to remember, even as girlie as he can be, he is still, deep down, a guy.) As far as the insurence thing, he's making an effor to pay all that off(by not buying movies and shit, like he normally does) but he's got to much things to pay off, so as soon as he gets money, he looses it. I think what's pissing him off about the parental units is that they seem to be nagging at him a lot about school and money and jobs...over and over and over again. He's trying, and they dont seem to give him a chance or trust him. I think what makes it worse, is from the sounds of it, your dad didnt seem to always be this way. So, therefor, it's a bit of a shock to him, and he may have an angry responce to your father. (Like an animal being cornered or scared). I also think part of why your dad may have changed in being more of a hard ass about all this is because all of the sudded 3 teenagers are moving in to his house all at once. Yes, you have always been his children, but he's from custom to having his house almost to yourself. (by almost, i mean joe moved in recently as well). To a guy, it's a subconsious invasion of privacy. He may not know this is what is getting to him, but it is. (this is a possibility.) Whoa, this is getting long, but this is my perception. Let me know what you think.... could be something along the lines of.."what the hell are you talking about you crazy ho" heh he

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I dont know, Nash has never really had to deal with my dad being seriouse about like...anything, so I dont know...you're probably right.

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CHallee, i will most likely talk to you about this tomorrow, and repeat everything i'm about to type, but here it goes anyways... You're right about me not spending time with you guys, i should be there for you all more often (right now i feel like i need to be there for you and taylor particularly). I appoligize for never being there for you guys, and spending so little time with you and Taylor. You know, right now, I'm in such a shithole that i don't know what to do with myself anymore. Hailey has been my only refuge from catching shit or anything, and it was stupid of me not to think of you and taylor too. I seriously have not bought a damn thing for myself for over a month now (no movie, game, cd, nothing except gas so i can drive) Every other cent i get is paid to insurance or something that i owe. I just paid off mom and phillip finally today, and so i am concentrating everything i can on dads insurance. I have strayed away from the family the same reason you have before too, you feel like you can't really do anything without someone gettin on your back for something. Dad and Mom have done the same thing, doing whatever they can to control my future, and particularly from dad, he won't shut up and let me get my schooling and preperation done myself. It's like he wants to put a leash on my neck and take me through college himself, when i want to do it MY WAY. I want to be able to do trial and error things, manage my life like i don't need to rely on anyone, and just be able to live my life and go to school without him interfering or telling me what to do. I have a plan to get things done now, and it just takes some patience on his part. As for you and me, well, we'll see each other a LOT more often now, so i promise i will come to you all, and i know you are there for me. I don't say this enough, but i love you challee, and if you ever need anything i'm there for you too.

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PS- Hailey is full of useful info, so you ever need anything i can't supply you, talk to her, she'll have an answer

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I understand that Nash, like you said, I've done it before, I dont really like hanging around all that much because dad does it to me too, and he'll do it to Taylor. He doesn't quite trust us with school or...anything really, because he hasn't had to deal with us like this since we lived in Arizona. And his only real schooling experiance came from Joe...and we all know how that was. Im sorry I didn't talk to you before, I should have.